Bijan

Forgotten. Category: Life Views: 176 You know all throughout life people have enjoyed my presence and said "you're so funny!". I still hear the same thing today and people seem to care so much, but I feel so...forgotten. I don't think I am anyones "favorite" I think I am just another funny guy and friend to a lot of people. It's stinks, I usually place a lot of value on the friends that I am with a lot. I pour so much into these friendships relationally and emotionally, but I don't receive the same amount back, almost as if it doesn't matter to them. Maybe I should be more passive about my friendships. I mean if I pour so much into them should I step back and let them stop receiving as much from me? Maybe I'm being selfish, or quite possibly even jealous. I know that I am a jewel to my savior, I am a treasure to Him. That comforts me a lot. But being a body of Christ, I just thought everyone would love me as much as I love them. I still love all those people to death, it just hurts a lot when I don't get anything back. It hurts even more when they direct their attention to others. Sigh, maybe I am being jealous? I just don't know how to view this correctly. It's funny because in the end I laugh with a smile on my face saying "Jesus loves me". And everything is so much better. But how long will I come back to this feeling? I may not know, but I do know that I can trust God with my life and where He wants to lead me in life because He has amazing plans for me. Plans that won't make me feel so forgotten.

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Mal2jewel

January 22, 2011, 07:19AM  I know that feeling all toooo well! I've struggled with that since my teens and I've often asked myself the same question - If I pour so much into them should I step back and let them stop receiving as much from me? I don't have an answer for you or a way to view this correctly but I can relate. I've just come to accept that not a lot of people have the same personality or I don't know now to explain it but deep love for others as we do. I came to a point in my life when I had to step back and say... this is enough! And because I choose to step back I don't have any friends right now (completely stepped back) but I've okay with that. I think I could write a book on this with all the experience I've had but I've devoted myself to growing in a deeper relationship with Christ and I've found peace, that forgotten feeling is LONG gone :) Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. :)