||It's hard to wait...
by BEK2500 (View All BEK2500's Blog Entries)
|Thursday, October 20, 2011
Eight months ago I told a friend of mine that I’ve known for almost 5 years, via NRT, that I liked him more than just as a friend and that I felt as though I was falling in love with him
I had no idea that it would happen this way. I never dreamed that God would have me fall in love like this. That I would be here in the States and he would be in Germany. That we would meet over the internet and not actually get to see each other until months later when I finally got a web cam, but it did. Slowly he became my best friend and then one day I was talking to him on facebook and I felt something more, something greater. I was scared and terrified because I didn’t want to lose a friend, but I knew that God was telling me to let this guy know that I loved him. Little did I know, he was feeling the same way….
Well, here we are eight months later and I love him more than I did that first day I fell for him and well…yeah he loves me too. It wasn’t long after I told him that I loved him that God told me, “this is the one”. I thought that for sure that meant he would be able to come home soon and we would finally get to be together, but that isn’t what God had in mind. Every day spent getting to know him better is a blessing. However, every day being separated from him is extremely hard. The distance is hard, the time difference sucks, and the fact that I can’t hug him whenever he needs a hug is painful.
It's not easy…waiting. It’s not easy waking up each day and wanting to be with someone who is thousands of miles away, but the fact that I know in the end it will be worth it makes all the difference
To this day I do not know when I will be able to hug him or look him in the eye and tell him that I love him, but I do know that God is telling me it will be soon and until then I just need to wait. Unfortunately my soon and God’s soon are two completely different things. But anyways, although it may be hard to wait it will be so worth it.
I know eight months doesn’t seem like a lot, but it’s only the beginning. God has a lot more in store for us. Until then we wait…..for as long as it takes…
Yes this blog is about you.
Love ya and btw “I haven’t stopped falling in love”