||demons or mind games?
This may or may not sound real. this may sound incredibly stupid. But here goes. So, you know how i've been so anti-god and anti-religion lately? Well now I am either having my mind screwed with hardcore by stuff I've done or demons are real. Im leaning towards the latter.
So, EVERY night near my bedside just right before I go to bed a figure, hard to describe, its void of shape, yet is dark and has semi-human face, I don't know as stated it is very hard to describe. Whenever, this thing appears near my bed, a sudden state of fear, lostness, depression, and thoughts of horrid things in my past float through my mind plaguing me. I don't know what to do.
In my car when I look in my mirror I see this is gonna sound REALLY REALLY REALLY screwed up, but I see a girl undressing. Not just any girl but an incredible attractive young female. Then when I look in front of me I realize that I almost hit someone. I use the 6 second following rule so either I lose track of what I'm doing becuase of this and something wants me to get hurt but cant do it without me actually being the cause and falling into it or I am just being a completely retarded driver.
Well, ya so demons, there real in myopinion these experiences have caused me to long for that relationship with God again but I don't know where to start, I don't know how to make these leave, I don't know where to go to be safe. It's driving me insane. Right now I either sound like a raving lunatic, a complete fool, or some person in a time of religious peril. I take the latter, I hope.
||March 06, 2009, 09:54AM
And the power of the devil is so subtle, many people don't notice its harmful affects on their lives. Don't ever let the devil torment you in thoughts of a sinful nature. All I can say is when your mind is full of vile and vulgar thoughts, pray and pray some more for the removal of those thoughts from your life. After all, prayer is the most powerful weapon against death, hell and the grave...God bless.
||February 23, 2009, 00:34AM
I also left this message on the message boards for you, just in cased you missed it. I want you to know that I really do care:
Satan tries to distract us by using other Christians to hurt us...this way we will not want to walk with Christ.
It's so important to forgive them.
Cry out to Jesus and put your trust in Him. He will never leave you nor forsake you.
I left you a message on your blog as well.
This is a battle for your soul. Don't look to what other people are doing around you. People misjudge people, they attack people, they hate...they think they're doing it in the name of Jesus, but they don't even know what's controlling them.
I've just come to a place in life where I'm letting go of the past...all the past hurts from the people who claim to know Jesus. I'm gonna serve God with all my heart...I'm gonna live everyday like it's my day to meet Jesus...I'm gonna live it just like today is the day I will have to give an account for my life and everything I have done. In the process I'm going to pray for them, and love them just as if I were walking in their shoes, knowing God knows everything inside of my heart -- because He's taking care of the situation. I'm taking my walk with God very seriously. The bible says to love your enemies and pray for them. No weapon formed against us will prosper. I say, "Jesus is my VINDICATOR." (For some reason that word has been coming up...not sure why, but I know that's what He's doing for me. I do get words of knowledge...I can figure things out without even having evidence of what's going on.) He knows my heart...and He knows yours. Just come to Him just as you are. Forgive and love others...trust me and do this. Once you give your life to Christ you'll find FREEDOM. Old things will pass away, all things will become new!
It's seems as though there comes a day when we can't do the things we used to and get away with it. There comes a time of spiritual maturity. There comes a time when we have to make a decision to whom we will serve.
I pray you serve God with all your heart...I'm praying your faith will not fail you!
||February 22, 2009, 22:54PM
God is right there for you. He loves you so much no matter what you've done.
I've felt like that before as well. You're not the only one to go through that.
You're not going insane. It's just Satan trying to destroy you. The bible says submit to God and resist the devil and He will flee.
Cry out to Jesus with all your heart. Ask Him to forgive you of your sins and to save you! If you call upon the name of Jesus you will be saved. The bible says so.
Demons are real. Once a person is gone it's too late. Now is the time for salvation. It's a battle for your soul Justin.
I'm so praying for you to find the love of God in your life. Nothing can take His place. Nothing in life can fill that void inside of your heart like Christ can. You just have to forgive people...at least ask God to help you to do it. That's a step in the right direction. You're going to have to let go of any unforgiveness.
Sometimes that's a process that takes time...but you have to do it. I purposed in my heart to forgive everybody who has sinned against me. You gotta let go of the past. Trust me...
Cry out to Jesus to save you. He loves you so much.
I love you too.